I thought I’d enjoy a good 3 days at home and not worry about anything even remotely related to my apps. But after 4 months of spending 24×7 on GMAT, essays, school research, I cannot seem to be able to let go… even for 3 days… poor me…
I’ve spent more than 7 years working since graduation, and never once has my job done this to me. And I have done pretty well at my job despite that. Right now however, I’m getting crazy thinking about something that has started to matter more than it prob deserves:
1. Will I get in at my top 2-3 schools?
2. Will I get into any of the schools I am applying to?
3. Was my GMAT score good enough, or 20 short?
4. How can I improve my applications with that one killer line, phrase, word, comma, whatever?
And then some philosophical ones:
5. Do I really need an MBA?
6. What do I actually want to do in life?
7. When should I start a family?
Okay I know I’m starting to sound crazy but thats the extent to which this whole application process has changed my life. And I’m making one more effort to counter it: I’m going out on vacation over the weekend – instead of spending empty days at home, over-analyzing all these depressing details.
Have a blast sir 🙂 Forget about all this for a while. I wanted to take a break after the 2 dings considering the fact that after 5 schools I have been working in my apps non stop since july. But could not take a break!! Have been reconsidering my R2 choices, though second rung universities are still a NO NO for me 🙂
Trust me friend…these feelings resonate among many in the applicant community. We feel the pain. So have as much fun as you can and when you can
I guess pretty much all the applicants will be in the zombie state already! You seem to be doing good buddy… Your efforts seem to get materialized into applications. I am still into – ‘Please think less and click the ‘Submit’ more’ mode!!!
Anyway, good to have your drop by in my journey to unravel the mystery… Do keep visiting and more importantly, commenting!
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My friend, I think we all go through those periods of reflection and doubt. I think its unavoidable after constantly writing about who we are, what our hopes and dreams are, and what makes us tick. At this point all we can do is keep our head up and be confident in the path we have chosen.
Sir, status is still submitted but below it, it shows stuff like:
Completed
GMAT: Recieved (official)
Recommendations Recived by…..
etc
etc
etc
BTW drop me an email on journeyofbokaa@gmail.com. We can exchange numbers and talk on the phone sometime…..
Like everyone else above has said, each one of us goes thro’ these phases at different points in our app. I am just about starting the journey and you are already doing a good job :)..So just hang in there, stop wracking your head on all this and concentrate on the apps. I m sure great things will come with your way!
And btw, thanx for all the support and advice you give me..
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